My friend is in from out of town today...he moved to Mississippi to train units for the Army. He trains units so they can train the Iraqui police and the Afghanistan police. He has been to Iraqu twice. I'm mentioning all of this, not because he is just a friend, but because I was doing my reading summary assignment for English class. I read to him the essay by Kandi Tayebi "Warring Memories", and he gave me a few memories and experiences of his own. It makes me feel priveleged, because I know that he did not even talk to his now ex-wife about these things.
Which brings me to a different point alltogether. Sometimes I get irritated because with guys I'm always 'just a friend'...but I also love it because I am told things and joked around with like 'one of the guys'...and get to learn things about them that not many others know. It makes me feel quite special, as silly as that sounds. And they probably know a few things about me that only my two best girl friends know.
Still, it can be frustrating. It's hard while everyone I know is getting married and have been in relationships for long periods of time, and I am still struggling to even have a short term relationship. It's not that I don't want one, or not that I don't get out to meet people...I'm just always viewed as a guy with...umm...a different physical structure.
Ah well! It'll be alright. Something will happen one day =P At least I have everyone's secrets to harbor! ^_^
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Maybe you have to go and get what you want instead of waiting for it to come to you. I mean if you like a guy, tell him. Since guys view you as a friend, if you let them know you want to be more than friends it might work out well since ya'll have so much in common.
ReplyDeleteAnd, failing that, there's blackmail! ;-)
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